Raising a Blue Moon

I think this might come in handy when we are having an argument (in your teenage years) and you probably can't think of myself as ever been just a kid. When I think about my childhood it always makes me smile, I had an awesome one. Back in the day we didn't have smartphones and my mom didn't even wanted us to grow up watching TV so we didn't have cable until I was in like 7th grade. This was probably the smartest decision ever because that made me use my imagination and it has made me a creative and resourceful person. There were also no video games in the picture until I was about 12 years old; I had a Super Nintendo, so we were either playing with our dollhouse (my uncle Beto built each Balcazar family with girls a dollhouse), acting up a play or playing outside, keep in mind I grew up in Mexico where you can always go and play outside.  I remember putting on a bathing suit and going outside to dance in the rain (rain in Mexico is usually pretty warm so you do...

   My baby girl: I recently had surgery and had to leave you under the care of others. It was by far the hardest thing I had to do. Before my surgery, I had moments of complete hopelessness when I thought maybe that was going to be it, maybe I am not going to make it, and I am going to leave my child without her mom. Even though I trust your father and a small group of family members to take good care of you, nobody, I mean NOBODY, will ever love and care for you like I do. Exhibit A; I am writing this post at 12 am when I should be sleeping, but I can´t sleep because I am thinking of ways to stimulate you, better feed you, and of course, the old fan favorite: not kill you. I often torture myself to imagine new exciting ways you could be harmed and ways to prevent it. I hope that with time I learn to relax, but the odds are not in my favor. Luckily I am still here, alive and healthy, and you will enjoy your mother hopefully for a long, long time. But if I am gone, I ...

It has been almost since 5 months since this tiny human entered our lives. Learning to become a mom (up to my impossible standards) has been scary, exhausting, surprising, frustrating, challenging, painful but I wouldn´t change it for the world. My life has changed completely and there are moments in my day when I get a glimpse of happiness and joy like I have never experienced before, it is all because of her. I had a very difficult delivery to say the least and finally, after 3 days of labor pains and an emergency c-section I met this person that I have been waiting to meet all of my life. Skipping all of the wonderful (and disgusting) details about motherhood these are the certainties I have: - You learn to become a great mom (you are not instantly transformed into one), you get better with time and at some point during the firsts months you realize that it is all worth it and that it is okay to make mistakes along the way. - There is nothing you won´t do to spare your child...