Raising a Blue Moon

As I am buying cute baby clothes and checking items from my "buy for Julieta" list it hits me that I will soon be responsible for another human being's life. I know, I should know this but this anxiety comes and goes. At first is more about the physical changes you are experiencing, then is about planning for when the baby arrives, so between nausea and buying stuff you barely stop and think about motherhood. I had a great mom; she was kind, sweet, extremely patient and full of wisdom. She was supportive, very involved in our lives and still continues to be one of my favorite people in the planet. My mom had imagination, a good sense of humor, she had style and she carried herself with confidence. I think if I can just be as good of a mom as she was you will be fine. But sadly, I am not my mom, I am me and all I can promise is that I will try to be the following: - I will try to have most of the answers to your questions. I will continue to read lots of books abo...

One day, hopefully in a very long time, you will experience loss like no other. People that you love will die and leave you with a profound hole in your soul. Death has always been a difficult subject to me; I am terrified of my own death, mostly because I am not sure if there is an after life, and if there is, I am not sure I will be myself in it. We all have different ways to experience grief; some joke, others cry, some get very angry, others are simply not there, they check themselves out. I cry. I lost my aunt Blanca when I was in my early twenties and it was one of the hardest loss I have ever experienced. I miss her everyday, I miss her laugh, her sense of humor, her lightness, her ability to love me. Today I lost again, my grandma just died. Everybody is really sad, but each person is sad in their own way. My way involves tears and writting about it, my dad´s way involves lots of prayers. There is no right way, no wrong way, we´ll each treasure the memories of our loved...

We were walking in the mall the other day and your father made a comment about girls dressing too provocative for their age. He said he was worried that you might try to do the same. He asked me how do we prevent that. I don't have a very specific answer for this "problem". You are probably going to rebel at some point in your life and choose things that we don't necessarily agree with, I can see the headaches ahead, but hopefully we would have taught you to love yourself and respect yourself. In today's world appearances are very important, almost more than the actual truth behind them. It is very important for me that you understand that your worth doesn't come from your looks and actual beautiful people are the ones that are kind and noble. All I can give you is my wisdom. I have struggled with my own body issues during my whole life; in Mexico the lighter your skin is the better it is, I am "morena" (brown) and my sister and my mom ...